10:36

I'm missing my baby so very much.. Haven't heard her voice for 5 days already, and its set to go on for 11 more days. =(

and its funny, cus i'm texting her right now and she just mentioned the same thing about not hearing my voice for 5 days already. Hope she's not counting down the days to come home though. cus it'll mean she's not having a good time there..

oh what i would give for her to be happy..

its amazing to think that the both of us wants the 5th to come soon but then again we don't want it anytime soon.

i for one wants the 5th to be here because i'm depressingly broke right now and it'll be a relief (esp to my pockets) when the 5th comes around. or is it?..

and she, wants the 5th to be here fast so that she can go on a vacation she has planned since January and it'll be great for her to escape from reality, for two weeks at least,  by which time i would have been in Pulau Tekong already..

its may the 20th. 16 more days to say goodbye, and another 10 days to say goodbye to freedom.

i know i should stop counting down.


sometimes i really do wonder, who am i to my friends?..


anyway, on a happier note, happy 4 months dear. i love you.

just feeling slightly tender on the inside right now.

its been a while..

so i guess everyone had me believing that i would serve in the police force for national service. every single soul whom i talked to, told me that i would go into police. but guess what, on June 13th, i'm gonna end up at Pulau Tekong. Great.

the news caught me totally off guard and it took me quite some time to swallow the fact that i'm going to be away from my loved ones very soon. i've settled down since and accepted the fact that i am going to be away. i'll miss my girlfriend, i'll miss my family. no doubt. i've got to be strong and i've got to be positive about this. i am not going to lie. i am scared. scared of the changes that is looming large as each day passes by. everything will be different. and i mean everything. oh man... i feel like i've got so much to say... to my girlfriend, to my friends, to my soon-to-be-ex-colleagues. but i just can't seem to find the right words right now.

God willing, i will write another entry before i go...................

in the mist, that is these complicated feelings, theres one that stands out ever so clearly: I LOVE YOU. =)

HO MY GOD!

okay so i made the online booking like 3 hours ago?.. but only now that i feel sooo (insert word here) about it! like its just sunk in.. its close to a dream come trueeeeee.... alright if you're not sure what i'm talking about. its COLDPLAY LIVE at the Indoor Stadium!

i just can't find the word to describe these feelings.. the past few days or weeks even, have just been so awesome!

i swear i've never been so happy in my life. and obviously its got something to do with you. everything good that has happened have all been associated with you. i can't describe this feeling. i'm like a happy little boy who's in love. haha..

oh and on another note! i'm done with attachments! which can only mean..... GRADUATION! the guys over at the workplace were really sweet about it. they got me a metallic water bottle and gift vouchers. and to be honest, i felt kinda guilty for wanting to leave so bad. i wish i had given everyone something. i remember walking past everyone in the office waving and shouting goodbye.

so... this is it. in a few months time, i'm gonna go where every guy in SG will go through to become a real man. (not as though i'm any less of a man now. heh) oh to hell with it i'm too happy to comtemplate about it.

between now and then, i'm gonna have to utilise all this time i have carefully. =)